thoughts

I thought this distance would help. And it is kinda. I pretend not to care when I see you, but I do. I pretend to be so intrigued in a conversation with someone else, but instead I’m wondering if you’re looking my way. I try to avoid you because I’m scared what you would think of me. So basically you probably think I’m so uninterested in you. Which couldn’t be further from the truth. I pretend you’re nothing but a friend to me. I still can’t stop thinking about you. And I get so jealous when you start talking to someone else. This feels so high school I know. The thought of you with other new people drives me insane. Maybe I don’t want this distance anymore? Maybe I do want to see you everyday like it was. I want to know everything about you. And I want to be your best friend. I sound like such a stalker. Haha, but it’s so hard when you’re so pretty damn amazing.